Well I can say that my depression is back and has been here for a couple of days. I hate having bipolar 1 disorder. I haven’t talked to anyone the past couple of days and haven’t answered my phone as I just don’t have the strength to pick up my phone and answer it. I..
Well I can say that I am once again in Champaign and am proud to be back in my city, but it could be under better circumstances. I am here with my amazing ad fabulous Aunt. Hopefully Carle can figure out what is wrong with her so that we can get her back home where she..
Well I can say that tonight I have been restless like hell. I can’t sleep as it’s 4:15 in the morning as I am writing this blog post. I have taken my sleeping medications that are prescribed to me and they aren’t helping me. I don’t know what is going on. I do know that..
Well today turned into a great day. It was supposed to have started this afternoon but it started early this morning which didn’t bother me as I was already awake. I ended up going to Missouri with my brother Lawrence and nephew Levi to pick up Tonya from her dads as she was ready to..
Well this week is National Suicide Prevention week and World Day of Suicide Prevention. I can say that we need better resources in our communities to help with this epidemic. I don’t get any help except for my primary care provider as there aren’t resources unless I travel an hour away from home and to..
I’m to the point that I don’t wanna live anymore and just wanna die. I’m tired of this life that I am living and having no one in my life that even cares. There’s a song out there that I love, and it’s 1-800-273-8255 by Logic. It is simply how I feel right now, and I..
Well Tonya has had another meltdown tonight, and man is it childish how she keeps having these meltdowns. This time, she got all pissed and bent out of shape because Rat got high with me. Tonya had plans on getting Rat back, that way I had no friends. Well guess what bitch you didn’t plan..
Well my depression is still here and it has been 3 days so far that I have been stuck in bed and not have any cares in the world. This depression thing really sucks but I look at it as a way to recoup from all of the mania that I get to experience. So..
Well part of my Bipolar has made a comeback. The past couple of days all I have done is stay in bed and completely ignore everyone. I have just wanted to be myself and no one understands that. I wish the depression would go away and never come back and just have to deal with..
Well recently I was in Champaign at Carle Foundation Hospital with my Aunt as she was transferred there from another hospital for low sodium levels. We ended up spending a week there in the hospital getting her sodium levels back up into the normal ranges. While we were there, my aunt had a total of..