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Worst Day

I can say that today has already started to be one of the worst days that I have had. Last night I was laying in bed relaxing and watching a little bit of tv and my older brother tells me to get dressed and to come outside, cuz I’m not going to be happy. Well he was right. All of a sudden my passenger rear tire went flat. It popped as my brother was walking by to come inside. I just don’t know what to do anymore, if it isn’t one thing it is another and I’m getting tired of it.  But I guess god wouldn’t give me these pitty issues if he didn’t think I could handle them and at times I doubt myself at being able to handle them.

Giving Back 2018

Well I can say that I have already begun my beginning for the year. After Christmas my aunts house caught fire and was deemed inhabitable. While she was living there, she was also taking care of her Aunt and had her living with her. After the fire it left them and Aunt Starla’s family homeless. Aunt Starla has been staying at a motel with her husband thanks to the generosity of The American Red Iroquois County Chapter. She wasn’t able to bring her Aunt with her to the motel and therefore the only option available that they had was a nursing home for her until they can find another house. Well I asked her if she just wanted to have her stay here with my and my family and I take care of her she was ecstatic and said yes and please. So for the past week I have been graciously taking care of her along with my mothers help. Not only do I take care of my mother throughout the year I also take …

Depression Mile High

The past coupe of weeks (maybe a month) has been just a total shit hole for me. I have been severely depressed, where I don’t even wanna get out of bed literally. I don’t know what is going on with this funk, but I am sick of it. I have been thinking about a lot of things and a lot of things have been going through my mind and I just wish it would all just stop. It’s to the point I don’t even know what I am thinking anymore, which is bad, as I always know what I am thinkig of and always have full control of my faculties. I know I’m not going to do anything stupid and jeopardize my life or anything like that. It’s I just don’t have a care in the world of what’s going on. I don’t know what is causing this, and have been trying to figure it out but without any success, but I am determined to figure out what is going on and to fix it. …

Besties

I can say that I have found me a new best friend and the best thing is that he is gay also. I now have someone that I can relate to and we can just kick it and have fun and I can be myself all the time whenever I want when I am hanging with him unlike my other friends I can’t, or when I am they can’t relate to everything that I am going through or understand anything haha lol.   I’m just glad that I am not the only gay guy around here now and is close to where I live and we get to kick it almost all the time haha lol. Thank god for best friends.

Another Rant

Well I can say that I am fed up with everything, and I am looking for another place to live and no one is going to be coming with me. Hopefully by the end of November, I will have found me a suitable place for me away from all of the bullshit that I am around 24/7. I’m to the point to where I don’t even want to be awake anymore. I force myself to sleep all the time if I’m not out doing something with friends having my me time, as I have no feeling when I’m at “home”. I’m the one that buys the groceries around here, and people can’t even keep the kitchen clean so that I or my mother can cook. They would rather soak up the A/C and eat up the food that I buy all at once. Hell its bad when you have to hide food because people love to eat it all up at once, but it does no good to hide it because they come in your …

#ProtectTransTroops

President Donald Trump declared when running for president that he would support the LGBTQ community and be an ally. On June 14, 2016 he tweeted thanking the LGBT community and reminding us (LGBT community) he will fight for us! Well he has has lied to us once again. He has tweeted out on July 26, 2017 that he will not allow or accept Transgendered individuals to serve in any capacity of the US Military. By doing this, this will be discharging 15,000+ active military service members in the US Military. We as Americans must stand together against our bigoted president and let him know that we can not allow him to dismantle our rights and freedoms.

National Sibling Day

Well hell I seen my brother shared a post on Facebook today about National Sibling Day and mentioned his two sisters and his non blood siblings and nothing about me or his other brothers. When I seen that, it just hurt me. My heart had just dropped and has made my depression coke back into play today as I was feeling pretty good today for the first time in a couple of weeks. You know what yea we have our differences on so many things that we barely relate to anything at all but we are still siblings. He couldn't even acknowledge me and that's what hurts me the most. This is the first time that he has ever done this. I'm gonna try and not let this get to me but I guess it is what it is. Life must go on.

Iroquois Memorial Hospital

Well I ended up having to take my grandma to the emergency room the other night and all I can say is that it wasn’t a very pleasant trip there, but what trip to the emergency room is pleasant. This time was complete disgust. The emergency room was full of mosquitoes, june bugs, and my grandma even had a bug (roach looking bug) crawling on her bed that I ended up killing. The patient next to her ended up signing an AMA as she left the emergency as she was being treated and taken care of she she should’ve been. The staff in the emergency room including the physcian was very rude and slow. I could see them being slow if they were busy, as it was the emergency room, but the only patients in there was my grandma and the patiend that ended up leaving against medical advice. The emergency room physician ended up making the decision of having my grandmother admitted into the hospital for obsersation, but the doctor never told us it …

Christmas

Thankfulness is the start of gratitude. Gratitude is the completion of thankfulness. Thankfulness may exist in words, but gratitude is seen through actions. #merrychristmas 🎁✨

Pissed Off

I love how people accuse me of some complete bullshit when I have had nothing to do with it completely. I get told that I’ve been acting wierd as fuck the past couple days and some other shit. I got news for ya, I haven’t been acting wierd or anything, if anyone has been it has been you. You say one thing and 5 minutes later you do the exact opposite. You say your not going to do something ever again and then do it again. You say that I’m the liar and that you have caught me in several different lies, well you know what I have you caught you in more lies that I have ever seen anyone tell. Today you text me being a complete asshole, and saying that you bm is texting you wanting to know why im telling everyone we’re lovers and that you are 1000% for sure that I’m the one telling this. Well I got news for ya I haven’t told anyone shit and I’m getting tired of …