All posts filed under: Champaign-Urbana

OSF Healthcare

Well on April 2018, I was taken to my local hospital ED for trying to hang myself. I ended up staying in the ED until 9 am the following morning. After that, I got to be transferred to OSF Healthcare Heart of Mary Medical Center in Urbana. I can say that they since OSF took over ownership, some things have changed and one of the biggest changes is the technology. The technology they use is some of the best. The downfall is that the computers/portable workstations are brand new and they keep freezing. I know they used a mixed environment for technology as that could be some of the problems that they have with their technology “upgrade”. Who knows what the backend server looks like, don’t know if they using just any backend server, or top tier, such as Apple Server, as they mix apple products. After staying here for the three days that I did, I can officially say that I feel about 85-90% better than what I did before I got there. OSF …

I Went Hanging

Well today was a shitty ass day. I ended up trying to hang myself and just be done with life. My brother comes in the garage where I am at with the noose around my neck and getting ready to step off the chair I was standing on.  He wants to know what is wrong and accuses me of doing this for attention. Yea, suicide for attention? Makes sense don’t it. Well he made me call the crisis help line and I got no where with it and he even heard it. He then proceeded to make me call the hospital where I was last hospitalized to find out what to do. They told me to call an ambulance and go to my nearest hospital emergency room. I ended up doing as they said and got taken to the Hoopeston hospital. Upon arriving to the hospital, I had to strip down to my boxers. My vitals were taken regularly and they advised that they have contacted crisis and that they should be there anytime but …

Pride 2017

I can say that this year I won’t be attending Pride 2017 in Chicago like I had plans on doing as it was something that I wanted to do this year. But it’s ok, I am going to go to Champaign-Urbana and go to their Pride celebration and it will be the first time of me going to Pride in Champaign-Urbana during September. I am looking forward to seeing what Champaign-Urbana has to offer for Pride for events as this will be something new and exciting for me to go to this year and am looking forward to going and enjoying myself. I am going to take a couple of my friends with me so that I’m not going alone as this is something new for me as when I go somewhere new or an event that is new to me, I always go with a friend or a few friends. Although I would much rather go to a much bigger Pride celebration, but one can’t complain as I will be celebrating amongst others in …

Surgery?? Possibly??

Well I went to the doctor today for the results of my MRI that I done on my right knee for the chronic pain, as the meds and physical therapy didn’t work. And the results are in…I have to see the orthopedic surgeons for my knee as there is an impingement within the knee and might have to have surgery on it. First they are gonna use a camera and go inside my knee and explore and see what all they can find whats wrong and then we will go from there. I can say that my mom is worried sick already and stressing about it and says that she is going to be there and is going with me to the appointment to find out what is going on. So now I am playing the waiting game on ortho to call me with my appointment in Champaign. I am a little nervous about it but also am excited as well. I’m excited as I’m getting closer to finding out what is wrong and getting …

Self Admission

Depressed and manic! I haven’t been to bed in like 3 days as I haven’t been able to sleep as i have had a lot of energy and haven’t been able to contain but not enough energy to do any house work as i’m not doing that anymore because when i do i get downgraded and i’m tired of it. I was just told by someone that i’m a people pleaser and do almost any to make everyone happy well guess that shit is going to change as i’m going to start worrying about me and taking care of myself. I am currently sitting in the hospital in Urbana waiting on a crisis counselor to come and evaluate me so that i can possibly be admitted into the hospital for mental help with my bipolar. As this is the first time of me doing this on my own and by myself i am a little nervous and anxious. Every other time i was admitted it was because of self harm from intentional drug overdose and …

Stressful Day/Night

I can say that tonight has been very stressful for me. I ended up having to tak emy mom to the hospital as she wasn’t feeling good and was getting worse after she had fell yesterday. So we got her to the hospital and the on call physician ordered a CT Scan on her Spine and her head. The spinal CT came out normal where they weren’t worried about anything. The head CT did not come out normal and she had to be transferred to Carle Foundation Hospital in Champaign to meet with neurosurgeons. When doctor Martin told me she had to be transferred because of the hematoma on the head, I went into panic mode. I immediately went outside and made the phone calls that needed to be made. I called Lawrence and he showed up immediately and then I called Pammy and told her what was going all while I was hysterical and balling. She told my eldest brother Steve and he ended up telling my low life uncle. My uncle then had …

Happiness

I can say that after being back in the city (Champaign-Urbana) I felt so happy. It felt like I was at home where I belong. I am the one that loves to be in the city and would much rather live in the city instead of being in the “country”. I would rather be in the country as like a vacation or retreat. The city has so much to offer and more than what a country area has to offer. I do know that I think eventually I will be moving to the city and to start off in a city it will be in Champaign-Urbana. Although I was in Champaign for an unfortunate reason, but I am glad that it was there as I got to be chill and relaxed. I had a feeling that I hadn’t since 2012. I felt like I was at home. After I get things all settled and taken care of and the such, I will be moving to Champaign and starting a life (a better life) there. People …