Well some time ago (about 5 months) a county employee went to her superior, County Chairman, and committee chairman, to bring light of irregularities going on Animal Control with the Administrator. Since then, the county employee has been verbally harrassed, humiliated, and wrongfully terminated. When the employee made the call to contact the superiors of the Administrator, nothing was done. Since her allegations, she was recently fired because she refused to sign a contract to work for the county. There is confusion within this county government whether she was at-will employee or a contracted employee as there are different policies set up for each defination, at-will employees, have a policy with several procedures in place before termination, and a contracted employer don’t have these luxuries their just terminated. After employee refused to sign the contract and said she was being relieved of her duties effective immediately due to poor job performance. Since the employee has been terminated the county has come together as one to support our animal control warden. The committee in which is in charge of Animal Control wasn’t too thrilled to find out that this was getting public attention, so now the committee is trying to sweep it under the rug as usual with Iroquois County. Chairman of the board has recommended that the tax committee refrain from the invesitigation into allegations as it pertains to board members on that committee. Tax Chair seemed to be refusing to take the recommendation from the FULL county board. Also, the county is in the dog house so to speak, as some board members done research in support of the warden, and it shows that Iroquois County is breaking the law of a state statute, as Iroquois County DOES NOT have a license to operate, which is a misdeamor offense with a fine of up to $500.00 per day they are in violation, but according to our esteemed state’s attorney is says that the state statute defines it as the administrator and/or vet in charge has a state license in which he does. But this wouldn’t be the first time that the state’s attorney has failed Iroquois County from corruption as Edgar County Watchdogs has reveiled that, in several of their posts. Not only we are illegal without the license we don’t officially have an administrator for the county as per county policy, the animal control administrator must be appointed by the board and for a period of 2 years. State’s attorney advises that since he was still being paid for these services he provides, he is still in fact the administrator, but the county needs to reappointment or appoint someone else as soon as possible. So has there been anything done about any of this, of course not, it’ll be tabled on the next county board meeting and the next tax committee meeting.
The county wants us residents to forget about it and then it’ll all be done and overwith and it can be swept under the rug once again. WCIA 3 Channel 3, The Times Republic, WGFA Radio, & The Daily Journal has been keeping the public informed and keeping Iroquois County transparent as any government agency is supposed to be.
The one good thing that has happened to the county out of this meeting. After several attempts to change the monthly board meetings to an evening time to allow more/all board members to the meetings and the general public will be able to attend and see what the county is keeping from us if official. Starting in January 2018 board meetings will start at 6:00pm. There was opposition from this being changed once again. They pretty much said they only want the public to attend the meeting and take time out of their working schedule to bring it to the boards attention, other than that they don’t want the public informed of whats going on.
You can view the video recording of this full county board meeting here, tax committee meeting here and other board meetings and committee meetings here.
Well I can say that I am fed up with everything, and I am looking for another place to live and no one is going to be coming with me. Hopefully by the end of November, I will have found me a suitable place for me away from all of the bullshit that I am around 24/7.
I’m to the point to where I don’t even want to be awake anymore. I force myself to sleep all the time if I’m not out doing something with friends having my me time, as I have no feeling when I’m at “home”. I’m the one that buys the groceries around here, and people can’t even keep the kitchen clean so that I or my mother can cook. They would rather soak up the A/C and eat up the food that I buy all at once. Hell its bad when you have to hide food because people love to eat it all up at once, but it does no good to hide it because they come in your room when your sleeping and snoop and find it, but your not allowed in their room, even though they don’t pay the rent. I’m just fed up with everything here.
I’m to the point where I would rather kill myself if I can’t make myself sleep. When you feelings like this, its best to say fuck it and find somewhere else to live and leave everything behind. I know I have a few city locations I have chosen of where to live, and they include Indianapolis and Champaign-Urbana and a few others, but preferrably Indianapolis as it is on of the furthest cities away from where I am currently, and I won’t have a reason to come back as it will be too far of a drive but not to far if there’s an emergency.
I’m just tired and about to give up on everything, and by moving, this would be the best option for me that I have left, I am currently looking at 3 bedrooms, that way if my mom wants to come and the guy I take care of that currently lives with me, wants to come they can but if they choose that they don’t wanna come with me, then I will narrow my choices down to 1-2 bedrooms, preferrably 2 then, that way I have a guest bedroom for whoever wants to come and stay. I DO NOT want a studio apartment, as that is just way too fucking small for me, as I like space, and that is something that I want and need. But I still have aobut two months before anything, So, I still have time to explore my options of what I want to rent and the location of what I want to call home.
People need to just grow the fuck up and get over themselves. I have my niece here for the day and her so-called grandmother is bein a total bitch to her for no reason. Just because she don’t want her around someone. I could understand her point if this person done something but he hasn’t done anything, as he would do anything in the world for my 4 year old neice. All she wanted was to be in the living room with me and him but that was a NO. Each time she tried to come into the living room she would get yelled and told she could only be in the kitchen. How can you “lock up” a child in the kitchen, all because you want to be a bitch. I got news for you this isn’t going to keep happening because my mouth is getting ready to open up and people aren’t going to like what I have to say and what I’m going to do. What’s the worse that she can do, call my probation officer? Big deal, because he already knows whats going on in my house because I tell him all the time and email him constantly letting him know what is going on as he wants to know what is going on in my life. He knows the dynamics that I am living with and have to deal with on a daily basis and they have tried to fuck me over before and succeeded but this time it isn’t gonna happen.
So since she won’t let my niece come into the living room and watch tv and be a kid, I am sitting in the kitchen with her while I’m writing this, and watching How the Grinch Stole Christmas with her so that she can enjoy her movies since she can’t in the living room on my smart tv.
Well I can say that I am officially back on #TeamiPhone after a short hiatus (5 months). I can say that I am so glad that I am glad that I am back with my iPhone. I have been so lost without having an iPhone. I was using an Android phone and I can say that it totally sucked ass and didn’t have any of the features that I came to love that Apple offers. I can say that I won’t ever go back to Android and will stick to iPhone and everything Apple.
Thinking Big (It don’t take a long time to do great things.)
There are several Democrats considering potential runs President in 2020 and a couple of them are Elizabeth Warren and Bernie Sanders, and there are hints of Former Vice President Joe Biden.
These are some hard choices between these three amazing people on who to endorse should they all decide to run and as they all have great cores and values that this great nation needs and deserves.
With the current administration that we have the great cores and and values we need and deserve we won’t get and of the ones we have will be eliminated. The current administrations has already promised to slash the supreme court Roe vs Wade, eliminate LGBT+ rights, and so many more supreme court rulings.
We have to ban together as a nation as the people of this great nation and let the administration know we will not stand for this and demand that we have a fair country like we have had in the past.
It is pretty bad when the President didn’t even go to the White House Correspondents Dinner this year instead he went to a NRA rally. He is the first president in history since 1983 to break Presidential Tradition. On top of this, his approval ratings among his own voters and party has went down 25% and they have went to the democratic party.
Well I think its time that I have myself admitted into the hospital in Champaign at Presence so that I can have my medication reevaluated for my bipolar because I don’t that my medications are working anymore. I have been getting more depressed here lately and manic more than ever. I let my mom know about it last night and she started to freak out about it, but you know what, it is something that I need to do keep my mental health in check and in control so that I am stable so that I can live a stable and comfortable life. Yes, I shouldn’t have to admit myself into the hospital in order to do this, all I should have to do is contact my psychiatrist and make an appointment for this, but I don’t have one and yes I can schedule and appointment with one but that will and can take up to four weeks to get into to see one. I want to be able to get in and see one as soon as possible so that I’m not trying to commit suicide again, as I’ve done tried to commit it twice in less then 6 months. I’m already have the dreams of committing suicide like I did before when I attempted before therefore, I don’t want to encounter it again. They always say the third times a charm. And this would be the third time. This needs to be done and taken care of so that I can continue to live a fulfilling life for myself and be there for others that need me and depend on my. As always I need to work on me first before I can even begin to help anyone else and the first step to attempting to helping others is helping myself and that is what I am going to do.
I am going to talk to my probation officer tomorrow along with my counselor and let them know that I am going to be admitting myself into the hospital soon and that it will be for a 72 hour psychiatric hold for medication evaluation. I am going to reassure them that I will be doing it during the beginning of the week after group therapy and after probation so that I am not missing group or probation and to show that I am committed to staying in group and not missing any of it even for medical issues for myself.
I know that I screwed my group up last time by saying that I was in the hospital sick and that my mom was in the hospital sick and the like for a month straight and that wasn’t right for everyone in group or to myself. As I should be leading as an example as there are new people in group and I didn’t lead as a leader should but I am going and prove that I am a leader and can juggle my life, group, and my health and still function. Yet it still may still be a bit difficult at first, but I am always up for a challenge.
I do have it figured out of when I am going to drive myself to the hospital for a direct admit into Presence 5East, and it will be April 4th or 5th as I will have the funds to afford the transportation to drive myself there and back instead of paying someone to do both and I have enough of my current meds to last me until then. It’s just one week that I have to wait until I go, but I have no choice, and it is something that I have to do and need to do on my own and to quit depending on others to take me. It is a small stepping stone for me to independence by taking control of my healthcare. If I could afford to take myself now and have myself directly admitted into the hospital it would be a no brainer and would’ve already been done. So here’s to a small stepping stone into the right direction of bettering myself and my healthcare.
Apparently people don’t understand the meaning of a Healthcare & Financial Power of Attorney anymore! As I am legally the POA for healthcare and financial of my mother but yet I have nothing in my control or in my possession as i am legally able to have. Instead I have restrictions that people put on my moms medications at the pharmacy from which I am not allowed to pick up as well. There is only one successor agent listed on the Legal POA which is my elder brother Lawrence which is when I am unavailable to make any decisions and only he is able to make to the decisions and no one else. I have done some legal research and spoke to some attorney’s and the next course that I will have to take, is filing a legal document for a healthcare restraining order, as the POA is also legalized within the court system as well. I will be filing the appropriate legal documents necessary as soon as possible and have a stay put in place until this is resolved and have me put back in charge and have other people stopped from making any other changes.
This is something that I never thought that I would ever have to do, nor want to do, but as a legal representative and having the best interests in mind of my mother, I have no other choice but to do this, and have these filings done. I do know that I will have to file for an emergency stay to be put in place as well as an emergency healthcare restraining order. I will have to absorb the costs of this having to be done, but I can have the costs recovered from the respondent. As this has caused an emotional turmoil on me and my family and will possibly cause more due to the legal paremeters that has to be done to correct everything.
So here’s to getting everything fixed and corrected to where it should be!
Well I can say that I just found out some interesting information that just pisses me off to the max. I have been holding in so much frustrations that I want to end up blowing a gasket but I get informed by my mother, that I just need to keep my mouth shut because the people that live here are wanting me to open my mouth and blow up. She told me not to do anything. How can I live somewhere, where I have to walk on eggshells and hope I don’t piss anyone off and then be persecuted by them for only god knows what. This is not the life that I asked for and nor am I going to live it either. If I can’t live in my home normally and be able to speak my own opinions then what’s the point of even living here then. There is no point of even living here then, so I have begun the process of looking for another place to live so that I can live my life the way that I need to and have to. And if nobody likes that then they can all just kiss my ass.
Below is an open letter to Mike Pence from Martin Hyatt, which was recently published on The Huffington Post. His words really resonated with me.
“AN OPEN LETTER TO MIKE PENCE: WE ARE NOT DOING THAT AGAIN”
November 13, 2016
Dear Mr. Pence,
Congratulations on your victory. First of all, I believe that you and Trump/Pence supporters think that we are upset because the Democrats lost. True, we are upset that we lost the election, but we are marching in the streets because we are scared of you. We are terrified of people like you and of a government that aligns itself with hate and ignorance.
People like you and Donald Trump have a history of making America think that we will lose our civil rights. This is not about losing our civil rights. It is about losing the lives we have.
I am writing this to tell you that we are not going backwards. We are not starting from scratch.
There was a time in our country when we were rounded up, locked up, falsely arrested for sex crimes, and had to live our lives in shame. Just so you know, we are not doing that again. Those days are long gone.
There was a time in our country when many of us were psychologically tortured by our “Christian” relatives and were told that we were going to burn in hell. We were told that we are sinners and that there was no spiritual place for us in this world. We are not going backwards. We are not doing that again.
There was a time when there were no depictions of LGBT life on television or film. There was a time when we had no cultural role model because simply loving someone of the same sex was considered too provocative. We will not go back to being invisible. We are not doing that again.
There was a time when we were sent to therapy and mental health professionals because the shame that society put on us drove us to self-destructive behaviors. Some of us turned to drugs and alcohol to damage ourselves because people like you told us that we were already damaged. Some of us tried to take our own lives. People like you made us feel like there was something wrong with us. We will no longer harm ourselves to further empower you. We are not doing that again.
There was a time when we saw our friends and loved ones die in our arms because the government was slow to acknowledge a disease that impacted the entire world. Brilliant and beautiful people died in the prime of their lives thanks to denial and prejudice during the AIDS crisis. Some of thought that we were going to automatically die because we were different. Those days are long gone. We are not doing that again.
There was a time when as young men and women, we found ourselves on the streets of this country because our families had thrown us out. Some of us found ourselves without a family at all because they had disowned us. We are not going back to that. We are not doing that again.
There was a time when we had to sit with our families and keep quiet about who we were. This was when people did not fully understand what it was like to be around those who were openly gay. They did not understand that we were equal and not sick. We are not going to educate our families on bigotry and acceptance all over again. We are not going to have an open mind and let them process their feelings about what it means to be bigoted all over again. We already did that. We are not doing it again.
There was a time when we spent our lives with our partner but could not be married. If our partners died, the family would come out of the woodwork and take the money and estate, as they were the next of kin. We were left broke and broken and alone. This will not happen again. We are not going back to a time when we could not be married. We are not doing that again.
There was a time when people felt empowered by their bigotry and hatred of us. They felt this so much that they tied us to fences and crucified us in the middle of the night in open fields and darkened streets and in broad daylight. They bloodied us with violent fists and killed us. We are not going back to a time when people felt protected enough to kill us. We are not doing that again.
There was a time when we had to live in secret because we could lose our jobs and be refused service at businesses for being different. The law did not protect us from being discriminated against. We had to live in secrecy to feed ourselves and our families. We are not doing that again.
There was a time when we married members of the opposite sex just so we could fit in and seem normal. We ended up ruining the lives of others by emotionally hurting our spouses and complicating the lives of our children. We are not going back to trying that normalization. We are not doing that again.
Lastly though, I will tell you what we will do. There was a time when those who had been abused, beaten, and weathered rose up. And we marched and protested and fought against the hate that was all around us. That, vice-president elect, we are doing again. We will do it again and again. We are not starting over. We are moving forward. The world has changed, and we are not going backwards.
We stood up and risked our lives and jobs and safety to earn our seat at the table. And with the help of kind leaders and brave politicians, we got that seat. You are not taking that away. We are already at the table. We are here. We are not coming to dinner. We are already at dinner.
Author/Professor, New York, New York
Lastnight I went to bed knowing everything I could know about my community that I live in and have lived in my entire life. I wake up this morning to horrendous and terrifying news. I wake up finding out that someone was murdered right here in my hometown that I live in. I don’t even know this town anymore it seems like. This is a close nit community we know everyone. This isn’t the first murder that this town has encountered. This will mark the third murder in my life that I know of. But murder does have some precedence in my opinion of what this nation is going to turn into since our presidential elections a week ago. I don’t want to believe that the elections had something to do with this, but it is a coincidence that this happen at this time. With everything that I have seen on the news with all of the protests going on still, and middle schoolers chanting, to build the wall that trump promised he would do this makes perfect since. I pray and hope that the nation I was born in and respect so much isn’t turning into this racist community. Something needs to be done and has to be done before it gets worse. Whats bad is if it does pertain to Donald Trump being president, he hasn’t even taken the oath yet, and already seeing and witnessing things like this. Can you imagine what the nation will be like once he takes the oath of being President and Commander-in-Chief. Things like this is just outright disrespectful of our country, that has came so far, and showing the freedoms that we give people that come here. We have our military fighting and protecting us from outcries like this and protecting our freedom. We have to continue to stand up for our rights and what America stands for and let them know we won’t tolerate actions like this towards others. I can honestly say, that I do not know Milford anymore like I thought I did. It has changed and not for the better.