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Short Term Goals

I’ve been told recently that I need to set some goals for my life and that I need to set some short term goals first and then some long term goals. Well, I have set one short term goal already and that is getting my GED. I am going to be getting my GED soon. I have already spoken to my Community College and they have placed me on their calendar where I can take the classes online with them. They are going to be calling me the first couple weeks of July 2017 so that I can go to the college and take the placement tests to see if I qualify for the online classes. They want to make sure that I am able to read at the 8th/9th grade level, in which I know I can. Once I get done with the classes I am going to take the tests and am hoping that I pass them with college honors or college credit minimally so I don’t have to take any prerequisite college …

Pride 2017

I can say that this year I won’t be attending Pride 2017 in Chicago like I had plans on doing as it was something that I wanted to do this year. But it’s ok, I am going to go to Champaign-Urbana and go to their Pride celebration and it will be the first time of me going to Pride in Champaign-Urbana during September. I am looking forward to seeing what Champaign-Urbana has to offer for Pride for events as this will be something new and exciting for me to go to this year and am looking forward to going and enjoying myself. I am going to take a couple of my friends with me so that I’m not going alone as this is something new for me as when I go somewhere new or an event that is new to me, I always go with a friend or a few friends. Although I would much rather go to a much bigger Pride celebration, but one can’t complain as I will be celebrating amongst others in …

Friendships!

Friendships is one thing that I pride myself on. There is one friendship that I don’t have and I wish that I did have and miss. That was one friend that I could always go to when I had a problem and no one would ever listen to me when I needed someone to listen but he would. Yes there are things that he done/does that I don’t approve of, but no matter what I will always be there for him no matter what anybody says because that is what friendships are about. I get told on a daily basis that this wasn’t a friendship or anything. It was just him using me to get whatever he needed or wanted. But you know what if that’s what it was, then it was, I don’t really care. I haven’t heard from him since around my birthday when I got out of jail and seen him in Casey’s and exchanged a few texts. Then I got a new phone and number and I lost his number. This …

How I Feel Today!

Well I can say that the past couple of days I have not been feeling myself mentally. I don’t think that the medication that I am currently on is doing what it is supposed to be doing for me and it needs to be changed. I have been depressed more and manic more than usual. I haven’t been able to sleep or when I do its for only a couple of hours. I keep getting asked if I’m okay, and I just say that I am because it is so much easier to say that I am ok than having to try and explain to everyone how I am feeling. I wish I was a lot easier to explain on how I feel, but it’s not. So I have to wait for the doctors office in Champaign to call me to schedule an appointment so that I can see the doctor and get my medication managed the way that it needs to be done. I just wish I didn’t have to deal with this on …

Snitching Bitchez

Well I went to probation today for the first time since getting out of jail and I got to find out a lot of shit. One of the first questions was my probation officer asked was if I was managing my moms money still and if I knew why I wasn’t. And then he told me all the things that people told him. My mom (my own fucking mother) had the balls to tell my probation officer that she wasn’t sleeping because she was scared of me and afraid that i might do something to her. WTF!!! I am beyond pissed the fuck off and then she told him that I was stealing her meds (narcotics) from her which I wasn’t. I can’t believe my own mother would betray me like that and then when i try and ask her about it like a notmal conversation, she denies every fucking thing. Hell while I was in jail she even told my probation officer and everyone else that I wasn’t coming back home and that I …

Healthcare & Financial POA?

Apparently people don’t understand the meaning of a Healthcare & Financial Power of Attorney anymore! As I am legally the POA for healthcare and financial of my mother but yet I have nothing in my control or in my possession as i am legally able to have. Instead I have restrictions that people put on my moms medications at the pharmacy from which I am not allowed to pick up as well. There is only one successor agent listed on the Legal POA which is my elder brother Lawrence which is when I am unavailable to make any decisions and only he is able to make to the decisions and no one else. I have done some legal research and spoke to some attorney’s and the next course that I will have to take, is filing a legal document for a healthcare restraining order, as the POA is also legalized within the court system as well. I will be filing the appropriate legal documents necessary as soon as possible and have a stay put in …

Pulled one Over?

Well some people think that they pulled on over on me? Well I got news for them they didn’t get shit pulled over over me. They tried to change my cable plan and services that I received from the cable company and guess what I got the services back that I originally had and even had them removed from the account as an authorized person on the account that I never even authorized. Hell I even put a pin on the account so that this shit can’t happen again and no one can call in and make changes to the account or even talk to a representative about my account. I never thought that I would ever have to do anything so drastic like this, but I guess, I have to. So its time to call all of the companies I deal with and put passwords on the accounts so no one can make account changes on my services. Try pulling another one on me again and make excuses cuz it isn’t gonna work.

Birthday

Well I can say that today was my birthday and turned the amazing 28. Let’s recount today of what all happened! Oh wait nothing happened. Today was just another day and turned out to be a shitty birthday and to be exact the worst birthday I have ever had. I wasn’t able to hang out with any of my friends or even go out to the bar like I wanted to and have a few good drinks. Today was just another shitty day in the neighborhood as usual. So here’s to next years birthday and see what it brings, probably the same as this years. 

Snitches & Incarceration

Well this is a continuation of my last post titled, Intentional Suicide. I ended up being incarcerated in the Iroquois County Jail for 30 consecutive days on a probation violation as someone snitched to my probation officer to have me drug tested and I ended up testing positive for a substance that only a select few people knew about that I was doing. By that happening that caused the violation and my probation officer revoking my probation and getting me terminated out of my group counseling that I was enrolled in which caused more issued as that was court ordered as well. I don’t know who the snitch was, but there was only a select few people that knew what was going on and what I was doing so I have an idea of who it was. But I am glad that I am no longer incarcerated and am back out in the community and free and able to be with my family again. When I find out who it was that snitched, there will …