Well I can say that this was an experience of my lifetime. I couldn’t have asked for a better evening with two amazing friends. I was able to see Boy George & and the Culture Club, B52s, and The Thompson Twins- Tom Bailey.
What made it even better was having the thunderstorms and getting soaked from it all as we didn’t bring any umbrellas or ponchos and he gift shop was sold out when we went in and then Charles goes back in and they bring out more ponchos and got us all a poncho so we could dry off.
While drying off we were able to get closer to the pavilion and see Boy George up close (atleast on the video screen). This evening had been one of a kind and the best.
Friendships is one thing that I pride myself on. There is one friendship that I don’t have and I wish that I did have and miss. That was one friend that I could always go to when I had a problem and no one would ever listen to me when I needed someone to listen but he would. Yes there are things that he done/does that I don’t approve of, but no matter what I will always be there for him no matter what anybody says because that is what friendships are about.
I get told on a daily basis that this wasn’t a friendship or anything. It was just him using me to get whatever he needed or wanted. But you know what if that’s what it was, then it was, I don’t really care. I haven’t heard from him since around my birthday when I got out of jail and seen him in Casey’s and exchanged a few texts. Then I got a new phone and number and I lost his number.
This is one friendship that I wish I still had and wouldn’t change anything about the friendship that we had. We grew up together and were like brothers. I constantly hear negative things about him or what he is doing or has done but, that is something that I don’t believe. People say I don’t believe because I don’t want to believe it. That’s far from the truth, it’s not that I don’t want to believe, it’s I DON’T BELIEVE IT!!
I don’t trust my life with anyone really even my own mother, but I trust my life with him. There are only two people I trust my life with and that’s him and my other best friend. Sometimes I just want to see how he’s doing, hell with the sometimes, I wanna know all the time, because I worry about him. People don’t understand what I see in him, well I see a friend, someone that’s been hurt (several times), someone that needs a friend (a true friend).
They always say, friends come and go. Well you know what that may be true, but this is one friend never goes. I always wonder how he is and if he’s ok. I wrote him in prison and worried about him when he was in prison. Yea me may not look like that person I used to know, but looks aren’t anything, it’s what’s inside that matters and that never changes. He will always have a good heart and help whoever he can when he can as he did for me on several occasions.
I do know I would’ve pissed a lot of people off if I would’ve had to have surgery on my knee. Because that’s one person I would want there because he would be the one to push me to get better and to not be a pussy about it.
Well this is a continuation of my last post titled, Intentional Suicide. I ended up being incarcerated in the Iroquois County Jail for 30 consecutive days on a probation violation as someone snitched to my probation officer to have me drug tested and I ended up testing positive for a substance that only a select few people knew about that I was doing. By that happening that caused the violation and my probation officer revoking my probation and getting me terminated out of my group counseling that I was enrolled in which caused more issued as that was court ordered as well. I don’t know who the snitch was, but there was only a select few people that knew what was going on and what I was doing so I have an idea of who it was. But I am glad that I am no longer incarcerated and am back out in the community and free and able to be with my family again. When I find out who it was that snitched, there will be some choice words for them and they will have their karma headed their way as karma is always a bitch.
I love how people accuse me of some complete bullshit when I have had nothing to do with it completely. I get told that I’ve been acting wierd as fuck the past couple days and some other shit. I got news for ya, I haven’t been acting wierd or anything, if anyone has been it has been you. You say one thing and 5 minutes later you do the exact opposite. You say your not going to do something ever again and then do it again. You say that I’m the liar and that you have caught me in several different lies, well you know what I have you caught you in more lies that I have ever seen anyone tell.
Today you text me being a complete asshole, and saying that you bm is texting you wanting to know why im telling everyone we’re lovers and that you are 1000% for sure that I’m the one telling this. Well I got news for ya I haven’t told anyone shit and I’m getting tired of being accused of something that I didn’t fucking do. You can’t take any jokes at all because you get so offensive. Everyone that I talk to and hang out with can joke and take jokes over anything. I say that I just won’t talk anymore and you get even more pissed off/irritated. Well you know what I have been the one that has been getting irritated from hell from all of the lies that you have told and not just to me. If we were “lovers” then why in the hell am I trying to hook you up with someone and telling them how great a person you are. But what do I know, absolutely nothing I guess.
Then you get bent out of shape because of a facebook status, about me of me wanting to commit myself back into the hospital. Here lately everyone has been pissing me off, but I’ve been holding it in and defending everything that has been said. But yet, I’m the one thats being sketchy as fuck and acting wierd. But what the fuck do I know, apparently nothing.
Well this weekend I am declaring it mine. I’m not doing anything for anyone this weekend as it will be my only weekend that I will have to myself and want to be able to enjoy it. I have shit my phone off for the weekend so that no one can disturb me or my weekend. The only disruptions that I will tolerate is emergencies. This is the only weekend that I will have as harvest is starting and I won’t be able to do anything until harvest is over. One thing is that it sucks as I won’t be able to go and see my friend as I would like to as I won’t have the time as I have to take a buddy to work and then pick him up from work and then I have my niece that I have to take to school and pick up from school. So if I wanna do something or go hang with my buddy I have to do it throughout the day from the time I take my niece to school and be back in time to pick her up from school. Hopefully I’ll be able to do something on Saturday nights/Sunday as my buddy don’t have to work on Sundays for at least right now.
So this is gonna be my weekend to enjoy to myself. I did want to go see my friend but don’t have the gas to go and see him. So hopefully real soon I will have the gas and everything so that I can cuz I do miss seeing him even though I’ve only seen him once since August.
So here’s to my weekend of relaxation!
Well I can say that I am again talking to one of my best friends and it has been great to hear from him. He just got out of prison and he has changed for the better. It has been good to be able to catch up again. Soon he’ll be able to leave and come up here and visit and I’ll be able to go down there and visit as well. I don’t know what I would do without him or Nick. I am thankful for having these two amazing friends.
Well I can say that I haven’t been to the gym in a while as I didn’t have the $45 dollars to renew my membership but that’s ok. I have found other means of getting my exercise done. Since the only thing that I ever done at the gym was use the treadmill, I decided to just start walking and walking around town. I found me an amazing buddy to walk with as she walks all the time as well. Marci is one hell of a friend that anyone would want to have in their life. She has a very uplifting persona that just radiates off her and spreads like wildfire. Marci is truly one of the best friends that I have and could ever ask for. We went on our first walk this evening and it was amazing. I can’t wait until we go out on our next walk and just talk and enjoy the openness and fresh air.
There are times that I like to be able to just chill and relax and enjoy a movie or two on Netflix when I’m not doing anything. This past week has been great. As in my last post, I have been to the gym almost everyday twice a day working on the treadmill and the elliptical and will be working my up to running on the treadmill and using the weights. So since this week has been so good, I decided to ignore all of my phone calls and texts so that I can enjoy sometime to myself relaxing and watching some movies and catching up on some much needed housework. I just seen that Netflix just added one of my all time favorite movies The Perfect Storm. This movie is just simply amazing. I’m gonna find me another good movie to just chill and watch and enjoy my weekend the way that I want to.
I know I have probably pissed some people off because of me ignoring my phone once again but I honestly don’t care. I have a life and I’m gonna live it the best that I can without anyone putting a hamper on it. My life consists of finding me new employment, working out, spending time with my family and friends and chillen. I don’t think I could ask for anything better.
Hello, it’s me I was wondering if after all these years you’d like to meet
To go over everything
They say that time’s supposed to heal ya
But I ain’t done much healing
Hello, can you hear me
I’m in California dreaming about who we used to be
When we were younger and free
I’ve forgotten how it felt before the world fell at our feet
There’s such a difference between us
And a million miles
Hello from the other side
I must have called a thousand times
To tell you I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done
But when I call you never seem to be home
Hello from the outside
At least I can say that I’ve tried
To tell you I’m sorry for breaking your heart
But it don’t matter it clearly doesn’t tear you apart anymore
Hello, how are you
It’s so typical of me to talk about myself I’m sorry
I hope that you’re well
Did you ever make it out of that town where nothing ever happened