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Friendships!

Friendships is one thing that I pride myself on. There is one friendship that I don’t have and I wish that I did have and miss. That was one friend that I could always go to when I had a problem and no one would ever listen to me when I needed someone to listen but he would. Yes there are things that he done/does that I don’t approve of, but no matter what I will always be there for him no matter what anybody says because that is what friendships are about. I get told on a daily basis that this wasn’t a friendship or anything. It was just him using me to get whatever he needed or wanted. But you know what if that’s what it was, then it was, I don’t really care. I haven’t heard from him since around my birthday when I got out of jail and seen him in Casey’s and exchanged a few texts. Then I got a new phone and number and I lost his number. This …

Snitches & Incarceration

Well this is a continuation of my last post titled, Intentional Suicide. I ended up being incarcerated in the Iroquois County Jail for 30 consecutive days on a probation violation as someone snitched to my probation officer to have me drug tested and I ended up testing positive for a substance that only a select few people knew about that I was doing. By that happening that caused the violation and my probation officer revoking my probation and getting me terminated out of my group counseling that I was enrolled in which caused more issued as that was court ordered as well. I don’t know who the snitch was, but there was only a select few people that knew what was going on and what I was doing so I have an idea of who it was. But I am glad that I am no longer incarcerated and am back out in the community and free and able to be with my family again. When I find out who it was that snitched, there will …

Pissed Off

I love how people accuse me of some complete bullshit when I have had nothing to do with it completely. I get told that I’ve been acting wierd as fuck the past couple days and some other shit. I got news for ya, I haven’t been acting wierd or anything, if anyone has been it has been you. You say one thing and 5 minutes later you do the exact opposite. You say your not going to do something ever again and then do it again. You say that I’m the liar and that you have caught me in several different lies, well you know what I have you caught you in more lies that I have ever seen anyone tell. Today you text me being a complete asshole, and saying that you bm is texting you wanting to know why im telling everyone we’re lovers and that you are 1000% for sure that I’m the one telling this. Well I got news for ya I haven’t told anyone shit and I’m getting tired of …

My Weekend

Well this weekend I am declaring it mine. I’m not doing anything for anyone this weekend as it will be my only weekend that I will have to myself and want to be able to enjoy it. I have shit my phone off for the weekend so that no one can disturb me or my weekend. The only disruptions that I will tolerate is emergencies. This is the only weekend that I will have as harvest is starting and I won’t be able to do anything until harvest is over. One thing is that it sucks as I won’t be able to go and see my friend as I would like to as I won’t have the time as I have to take a buddy to work and then pick him up from work and then I have my niece that I have to take to school and pick up from school. So if I wanna do something or go hang with my buddy I have to do it throughout the day from the time …

Friends 

Well I can say that I am again talking to one of my best friends and it has been great to hear from him. He just got out of prison and he has changed for the better. It has been good to be able to catch up again. Soon he’ll be able to leave and come up here and visit and I’ll be able to go down there and visit as well. I don’t know what I would do without him or Nick. I am thankful for having these two amazing friends.

Exercising & Friends

Well I can say that I haven’t been to the gym in a while as I didn’t have the $45 dollars to renew my membership but that’s ok. I have found other means of getting my exercise done. Since the only thing that I ever done at the gym was use the treadmill, I decided to just start walking and walking around town. I found me an amazing buddy to walk with as she walks all the time as well. Marci is one hell of a friend that anyone would want to have in their life. She has a very uplifting persona that just radiates off her and spreads like wildfire. Marci is truly one of the best friends that I have and could ever ask for. We went on our first walk this evening and it was amazing. I can’t wait until we go out on our next walk and just talk and enjoy the openness and fresh air. 

Movies

There are times that I like to be able to just chill and relax and enjoy a movie or two on Netflix when I’m not doing anything. This past week has been great. As in my last post, I have been to the gym almost everyday twice a day working on the treadmill and the elliptical and will be working my up to running on the treadmill and using the weights. So since this week has been so good, I decided to ignore all of my phone calls and texts so that I can enjoy sometime to myself relaxing and watching some movies and catching up on some much needed housework. I just seen that Netflix just added one of my all time favorite movies The Perfect Storm. This movie is just simply amazing. I’m gonna find me another good movie to just chill and watch and enjoy my weekend the way that I want to.  I know I have probably pissed some people off because of me ignoring my phone once again but I …

Hello Can Ya Hear Me

Hello, it’s me I was wondering if after all these years you’d like to meet To go over everything They say that time’s supposed to heal ya But I ain’t done much healing Hello, can you hear me I’m in California dreaming about who we used to be When we were younger and free I’ve forgotten how it felt before the world fell at our feet There’s such a difference between us And a million miles Hello from the other side I must have called a thousand times To tell you I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done But when I call you never seem to be home Hello from the outside At least I can say that I’ve tried To tell you I’m sorry for breaking your heart But it don’t matter it clearly doesn’t tear you apart anymore Hello, how are you It’s so typical of me to talk about myself I’m sorry I hope that you’re well Did you ever make it out of that town where nothing ever happened

Family

Family means the world to me and I don’t know what I would’ve done the past couple of days without them. When I had to take my mom to the hospital I never knew that I would need/want my family so bad. I was a complete wreck after being told they were transferring my mom to the hospital in Champaign. I went outside and sat in my car and just cried. Then I had to pull it together and call my older brother and let him know what was going on. After making that call I ended up calling my pammy. I just needed to hear someone’s voice and that is the one person I needed l. I just cried vigorously. I wanted to call my brother Nick, but I couldn’t because I didn’t want him hearing me cry although he’s seen me cry before. If I didn’t have my pammy on the other end of the phone I don’t know what I would’ve done I was such a huge mess. But I am glad …